Crazed

Today has not been the greatest for me. After two nights of minimal sleep, exhaustion has gotten the best of me. My thoughts are scattered, my body aches and my emotions are all over the place. I have found myself crying for no apparent reason; unable to calm down only frustrates me more causing me to laugh and sob at the same time. What can I say … it is just one of those “funk” days.

I am sure most can relate. Sleep-deprivation is a serious condition affecting many people in the pain community and beyond.  In my opinion, I believe adequate rest is one of the most important factors to keeping us mentally and physically fit. Without sleep, it is impossible to function at the level we need to in order to deal with life.   

While I am a bit crazed with self-defeating and self-loathing thoughts right now, I recognize that I am just overly tired. I know I am okay. All I need to feel stronger and happier again is a good’s night sleep.

Until that happens, I am trying to stay positive and relaxed. I cancelled my afternoon appointments to avoid stress (or a public meltdown!) and instead went on a walk with Rick and the dogs. I am focusing on doing things that may bring me peace or boost my spirits. Most importantly, I am taking deep breaths as I remind myself that this will pass.

For those dealing with insomnia, my thoughts are with you. My universal intention this evening is that we all receive a better night’s rest. Hang in there, know you are not alone and keep believing in brighter days.

Believing in Miracles,

Nicole Hemmenway

            Author of “No, It Is NOT In My Head: The Journey of a Chronic Pain Survivor from Wheelchair to Marathon”