Signs

Today I am still trying to let go of wanted outcomes. This is hard to do when so much is riding on what will be. Yet I know I can handle anything. I might not feel strong in this moment, but I do know I possess the strength, willpower and resilience to overcome any obstacle I might face.

It still amazes me how the Universe provides just when I need it to the most. The past twenty-four hours I have received many signs assuring me that I will make it through this new hurdle. From my aunt’s text message reminding me of the power that comes from “surrendering to the unknown” to emails showering me with love and support, I see that I am not alone.

Another sign came in the form of a song: Sarah McLachlan’s “Angel.” Immediately, I knew that a glorious angel from above was with me. A sense of serenity flowed through my body as I listened to the lyrics. Even though the feeling was fleeting, I knew I was “in the arms of an angel” then and now.

I also received a care package in the mail today. Not only did the heartfelt present bring a smile to my face, but it also brought joy back to my life. I realized that no matter how dark a situation may seem happiness and kindness always exist. I do not want to spend my days wondering “what will be” because that just robs me of what is currently in front of me.

Each of us faces our own journeys that cause us to question, doubt, fear and worry. If we did not experience these emotions, we would not be human. With that said, I do not think it is healthy to stay stuck in that dark area. It is important for me to acknowledge my feelings of helplessness while surrounding myself with light energy. I inhale serenity while I exhale fear.

I am thinking of you and hoping each of you finds a little magic or light in the midst of the pain.

Believing in Miracles,

Nicole Hemmenway

            Author of “No, It Is NOT In My Head: The Journey of a Chronic Pain Survivor from Wheelchair to Marathon”